I do not know what it is. I love my T he is trustworthy and nice. He goes the extra mile with me. I find some things I just cannot tell him. Not secrets though, I have never told anyone. This has to do deep things within SA . I know he will not lol at me, I know he will not call me names or even think poorly of me. But still I hold back. I had to tell him recently "I can't (as in say) he was very nice about it. Still, what's the matter with me I hope I dont make him feel like a failure.