I feel so blah. I see my life like it's a movie being played before my eyes. i'm sick of it. i'm sick of hearing my mom talk to my dad about the divorce. i'm sick of seeing her so upset. I'm sick of having such insane emotions. I'm sick of having no true friends. I'm sick of this crazy 'life'. Everything so sureal. Like a dream. So i want to cut to make it feel real. feel sumthing that can prove i'm not just a fake person in sum sicko's movie. At least alive. But if i can't do that than maybe i should just die. when i go to bed i pray i don't wake up. i'm sick of this dream! if my whole life's going to be like this than what's the point! sumbodys got sum sick sense of humor cause i'm sure not laughing. whoever started this whole 'creation' thing. why let us suffer? i sure want out. even cuttingS not good anymore! (though i'm trying to stop...)
Gah, thank's for letting me rant. I just have all these crazy thoughts. I don't mean to make fun of 'the creator' (not sure what to beleive anymore) but it's hard when my life's like this. i dunno what to do. i feel so blah...