Things are a mess right now. I left my boyfriend of three years last night. We were out to dinner and I just couldn't bring myself to eat right then. He has been through so much with me already and I guess he lost it a little. He said that he loves me too much to continue to watch me slowly kill myself. I automatically got defensive and told him that I don't need him to "mother" me. I got up and left. He ran out after me. I started yelling not even sure what exactly i said but i was histerically crying and saying something like "i don't need your pitty, im fine". He drove me home, we didn't speak after that. I feel so disgusted with myself. All I had to do was eat! What the crap is the matter with me?