Hello Ohlostme.

What does 'something good to happen" mean to you? What would it look like? I have two thoughts on this but only you can answer it. 1. What if you went to a fair and were really excited for months about going on your first rollercoaster ride and you could hardly wait for the thrill to come. The you get onto it, go for a ride, and wonder why it wasn't as thrilling as you expected it to be. Is your anticipating clouding the experiences?

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In order to feel something intense, you need a comparison and with you now feeling so disappointed in life, when something good comes your way you will feel it more intensely. So, metaphysically speaking, you will get what you desire, but you first need to feel the depths of the opposite in order to appreciate what you are heading for.

In any event, life is guaranteed to change but it will never come fast enough to those that are in the muck and mire of things so your impatience is justified. If I may suggest shaking up your world a little. Do something daring (but still safe) like going into a bar one afternoon and ordering a drink and see if anyone comes to talk to you and accepting what happens. Or, go to a karokee place and sing your heart out, even if you can't sing.

Six years ago in this month, I started yelling at God to get me out of my muck an put me on the track I belong. A month later the bottom fell out of my life and I went through a ton of turmoil. Now I can say, I have never felt this happy and content in my entire life. I look back and can't beleive how bad things had been for me and am surprised that they are so good now. I wouldn't suggest yelling at God, but I would suggest holding your faith.