Thanks, lonely. As for the physical health side of it, I have a horrible neurologist but my insurance will not allow me to switch to someone else (I tried, over and over). Since my insurance is through the University I work for, I'm restricted to doctors at the University and, once you've been assigned, it's virtually impossible to switch. This doctor's online reviews back up everything that I've complained about (and he has been reported to the board, but the claim is still open). He is completely sexist and thinks all women are "hysterical" and that all of our problems are "in our head." He refused to give me the follow-up MRI HE recommended and he refused refill the prescription HE said I should be on consistently. In fact, I didn't think about this until now-- but maybe my mood issues are related to chemical withdrawl? I've been on a pain med that says "do not stop taking abruptly; you must decrease slowly"-- but my doctor refused to refill the prescription, even just enough so I could taper off safely. So, I've gone from taking 6 pain meds a day to none. The issue is that I have several benign brain tumors and several ovarian cysts, but my biggest physical complaint is neck pain. My x-rays show that I have a pinched nerve in my neck, but my doctor doesn't seem to believe that the pinched nerve is actually causing me any pain, or that the brain tumors could be contributing to the pain. Because my neck is so sensitive to touch that my clothes irritate it (and therefore I don't wear clothes with high necks), my doctor's genius response is that I must have a pyschological issue with clothes touching my neck-- and therefore, all of my pain is not real. Obviously, not true. I would love to wear clothes with necks-- it's cold where I live and I have so many cute sweaters-- the problem is that the rubbing against my neck HURTS. Everyone in my life (my family, friends, T) have all seen me curl up in pain, and have never doubted anything. My GP does not doubt me either, but her hands are tied. She tried to get me in to someone else, but my insurance won't let me. Anyway, my neurologist referred me to a biofeedback therapist-- I went, he evaluated me, and determined my pain is physical, NOT psychological-- and sent a report verifying this to my neurologist. However, he did not read it, only saw that I did not return to the biofeedback guy, told me I was non-compliant, and refused me the MRI and medication. I even had the biofeedback guy call the doctor's office on my behalf, explain that HE told me not to come back because I don't need biofeeback, and still, my neurologist refused to listen. He refuses to treat my neck (or monitor my brain tumors), so the only help I'm getting now is from a chiropractor. And, for the last 5 days, I've had no pain meds, either. I have a gyno who is monitoring my ovarian cysts, but she can't remove the one that really hurts without also removing my ovary. I already had surgery to remove one on the other ovary, which damaged the ovary, so they don't know if it's fully functional anymore. Since I want kids, I won't let my doc remove the other ovary unless I get to the point that I'm in so much pain, I just can't take it anymore. (That's another reason why I probably come across as having time pressure around marriage & kids. I want kids sooner rather than later, because I don't know if there will be a "later" to have biological kids). Okay, that's way more info on my medical stuff than you needed but-- well, that's what it is.