...every now and then?....guess I like to rip into myself just a bit and I don't know what for? ....it's probably disappointment or something disappointing like that.

my brain has gone and done a weirdo on me today and it's instantly obvious to me that beneath all the meticulous and complicated layers that make up "me".... I'm really only about 6 years old!

...and thats about 35 years too young! I don't really want to get into detail because I don't know if I can...it's just a distinctive 'feeling' that the mechanisms of maturity have passed me by and I hate all the questions that announces!

...like "I feel like I'm such a child"....does that matter? ...it's safe being 6 in my bubble...but it's perplexing outside

I don't know anything else just now...nite