My brother cannot get off for Christmas so we decided to have Christmas at Thanksgiving, Chrisgiving. I was all for this as I only get to see he and the kids a few times a year, which is what the holiday is about to me not so much about the gifts though I do like finding that special something for the kids. However, it feels like a chore getting ready this time and I know it is because I am not up to par. I hate this guilty feeling that I am not sure that I want them to come now as the depression has set in and am getting over being sick. I just don't want to drag them down with me and putting on mask is not what in mind as have always been genuine with them nor do I have the energy. I'm sure I don't want them to see me this way, esp the kids. Then I wonder if seeing them won't help all of us right now, lift moods and the holiday spirits in all of us, and seeing the kids on a "Christmas" morning with Santa coming early, too precious and much fun.