Thanks for the encouragement. I'm in a very uncertain place right now. Part of me just wants to vomit out everything crappy that I've kept inside for so long, but part of me is afraid to. Afraid that if I do, no one will care, that it won't make me feel any better, that people will think I'm overreacting, etc etc etc etc. And everything is really upsetting when I really stop to think about it. I was really really messed up for a long time... and have gotten into messed up relationships... and it's like abuse just keeps popping up in my life in different ways. Any one thing doesn't seem so bad, but it just keeps happening over and over and over. And I just want it all to stop.