Melstar, I'm sorry you felt so down after the appointment. Yay for you for keeping your appointment! Glad your therapist has a plan in place. Are you starting your day treatment this week, or will it take time to get the insurance set up?

I think it makes sense to have hopeless feelings come up after meeting with a therapist the first time. Before getting help, part of your brain can stay in denial about your issues; once some of your worries are validated by an expert, you have to really face those issues. Scary stuff!

You have help to face those issues now, though. You're not facing this alone. I hope you let your treatment team know how you reacted to that first visit. This can get better. Hugs to you!