Sounds like you're in a really tough situation. Your treatment team wants you to do one thing to get better, and your mom wants you to do something else. Your doctors want you to focus on your own recovery, but you have to be there for your grandfather.

You have to make a decision about what to do next, but the family component makes things much more emotional. You kind of have to balance everything; and it seems like the doctors are saying that's one of your big stressors! I feel for you. It's a hard place to be in.

One thing I can suggest is maybe trying to focus less on potential obstacles like employers not hiring you under strict guidelines (I'm guessing you want to limit hours or limit certain types of duties).

If you're lucky enough to get an interview and it's going well, go ahead and try to get them to meet your guidelines! If they won't, but they want to hire you, then you can make a decision at that point: you can either take their offer and try to work there with the support of your treatment team or you can decline.

Like you said, the job market's tough. Maybe if you're at least interviewing you can keep your family off of your back. I can understand not wanting to interview before you're ready if you think that in a few months you would interview better with the same companies. But I also know what it's like to talk yourself out of opportunities because you assume nothing can work out; I just hope that's not the case for you right now! I think that would might a good issue to bring up with your counselor.

Sorry you're having such a hard time with your mom. You can't make people believe you or understand, but it's so painful when someone close to you won't take your side; it's worse when they think the worst of you even when you're trying hard to do the right thing. I can tell you really love your family; I'm glad you are able to spend time with your grandfather. Good luck with the SSI app!