Wow. It really does suck when you feel like you're pouring your heart out and nobody's listening. It feels lonely, doesn't it? I seriously doubt that it's personal. Don't be discouraged. Keep sharing. As for your other issue, I have found that there is something inside of me that attracts what I call "toxic people". These are people who, ultimately, aren't good for me. It sounds as if your friend has a need for chaos in her life. It's something you seriously don't need. Start hanging with people who build you up and leave you feeling better. It's just a thought. Good luck and keep posting!