Pas, there are some things that can be very hard to talk about. I guess when the time is right you will be able to tell your T these things you are holding back on... My suggestion is not to push it.. Maybe you could write about it in a journal first.. and just keep writing until you can't write anymore.. Then maybe try telling your T.. If you find you still cant talk about it, maybe you could give him your journal to read. Try not to be so hard on yourself.. k.......

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