I couldn't get away from me like everyone else can. I have a work issue and because of me feeling so vulnerable, I am having a ton of difficulty even thinking of a solution. I am so socially inadept. I can't be myself around other people because I have weird interests. I will never fit in anywhere including therapy. I will never be accepted even there. My new T will eventually see who I really am and hate me like I do. Because I have the issues I do, I don't deserve to have any contact. I didn't ask to be this way, and I don't want to. Being in pain is the best course for me. I'm not in a good mood.