Thanks, almostangela and sky. Lots to think about and respond to.

“What does 'something good to happen’ mean to you?”

Ahhh. THAT’s the question. When I had an acting career and would get a prediction like that, I always thought it meant an acting job was coming. But it didn’t always come. And I wondered if it was actually something else that was being predicted, but I didn’t know what. I was interpreting it one way, but my interpretation could have been a bit off. Now, when I think of good things coming, I’m thinking of a script sale, a book sale, a lottery win – something that will bring in a lot of money that will, ultimately, allow me to move out of California and back east, which is my Big Dream. Of course, that doesn’t necessarily mean that that’s what’s being predicted. It’s just my interpretation of it. REALLY frustrating.

“Is your anticipating clouding the experiences?”

Inevitably.

” metaphysically speaking, you will get what you desire, but you first need to feel the depths of the opposite in order to appreciate what you are heading for.”

Oh, believe me, I’ve FELT the depths, all right…Decades-worth of depths. I’m READY for the contrast.

”In any event, life is guaranteed to change but it will never come fast enough to those that are in the muck and mire of things”

AMEN!

“Six years ago in this month, I started yelling at God to get me out of my muck an put me on the track I belong…I wouldn't suggest yelling at God, but I would suggest holding your faith.”

Oh, I have SO been there and SO done that. I’m glad it worked for you. My “God” turned a deaf ear, or just doesn’t care (my perception. Religious fanatics may disagree. I love their cop out, when people say “I prayed for something and God didn’t answer my prayer.” And they say, “Yes, he did. Sometimes the answer is ‘no’.” YEAH, RIGHT!).

”Even I, who can draw inanimate items into my path of life, could not just expect something good to happen overnight...IF I hadn't developed a lifestyle that supports that. “

I don’t expect something good to happen overnight. I’ve spent YEARS working my butt off for some kind of break that never seems to come. ‘They’ say “you make your own luck/opportunities.” Maybe. But I’ve worked very hard for a long time and haven’t seen results. I think I could be working hard, but not smart. Wish I knew how to smarten up…

”…you need to find every good thing in your life and begin to appreciate those things first. Daily, constantly.”

I’ve read those books, too. And I do. On a moment-to-moment basis, regularly, I’m saying things like “universe, I’m grateful for that beautiful tree”…or “universe, I’m grateful that I was able to get from point A to point B in the car, safely,” etc. BUT, when what you want is an out-of-state move (the money to make one and start a new lifestyle), and you have to be grateful for little things like having a phone…yes, I know having a phone is a luxury. Everyone doesn’t have one and would be grateful for one, if I’m not grateful for mine. I just spent the better part of a month with phone problems, and I AM grateful to finally have service restored. But, do you know how demoralizing it is to have to be grateful for every little thing, because you haven’t been able to get the real “blessings” that your heart longs for? Things that other people have and take for granted, but that would mean the world to you, and yet you can’t seem to have or make happen, no matter what you do? It makes me feel helpless, pathetic and SOOOO demoralized. Like a poor relative.

“Next, you need to expect good in your daily life...not the biggie event but all the little "trees" of goodness. “

That’s one that I can’t say I can really swing. There’s been too much bad for too long for me to expect good. I hope for it, I sometimes pray for it, but expect it? That’d be a stretch for me.

“In quantum physics it's been proven that you create what you want. Not only can you see what you want, but the act of observing changes what might normally happen into what YOU EXPECT to happen. Do you believe this? I do.”

I’ve been getting “into” quantum physics, since last year (after seeing “What the Bleep”). When I was a teenager, I was very into mind over matter, and I saw results. I also practiced witchcraft and saw some results. But making lots of money appear so I can change my lifestyle and location of where I live – that’s one I haven’t been able to bring about, for all of the visualizations, etc.

”you must act like it is for it to be so!!!”

Yeah, faith is something that I’m seriously short on, at the moment.

“I believe Karma to be for the "next" world.”

I don’t. I can’t explain why some people seem to get all sorts of things with little or no effort, but others struggle for years and can’t manage to get what they want, no matter what they do. I have to believe it’s some people’s karma to have some things, and other people’s karma not to. Simplistic, but it’s all my brain can currently accept.

“Often there is an element of NOT ALLOWING something to come to you. Unconscious feelings that you don't deserve good things can block your conscious intent.”

Yeah, well, considering my low self esteem, that could also be part of why so little good seems to happen to me.

“think -intend- good things in your life!”

Would that that was all it took…Thanks for the wisdom.