Dear T,

didn't feel the "i get you" tonight at all.

im scared to tell you what i am thinking. except i just cannot think of any other solution to the problem.

i am thinking of terminating in may. less complications for the future.

feeling very alone but knowing that i am doing the right thing.

i hope we can connect better next time, if that is okay with you... feeling more lost than usual. not belonging, not good enough.