I'm frustrated. As all get out.

I'm still "too young for back surgery" - I'm 30.

To give some back story to this, I have:

- L4-L5 herniation
- Facet Joint Degeneration
- Sciatica
- Numbness/Weakness (usually mild) in legs and hips, sometimes even hands

I'm starting to suspect I may have a second ruptured disc, because my arms are now going to numb randomly too.

I've been in pain my WHOLE LIFE literally due to my back...I was born with mild kyphoscoliosis. I literally have a bone in my lower spine that you can hear crack across the room if I move wrong and it hurts like the devil.

I'm also a recovered pain pill addict, but I'll be completely honest - for the first time in two years I'm considering pain medication and I don't want to.

I feel as if everyone is ignoring what I'm saying - that I'm losing the last of my youth to my back. Am I overreacting? I haven't gone into this lightly. I'm tired, don't want to become an opiate addict all over again, and want to have as much mobility as I can for the rest of my slowly slipping away youth.

Am I being reasonable?