I really hear you on this one, elliemay. I've come to the realization in a different way from you that my T is human, and yes, it scares the crap out of me. Why it's terrifying to me is that humans are IMPERFECT. For the first year or so I saw him as a god, a rock, a thing that I could depend on. As I poured out my heart and soul I felt safe with him.

But as I began to realize that I was dealing with another human being it was so scary! He could do anything! He could screw up! He could reject me! He could ridicule me if he wanted! I started to doubt him. I thought he was good as a T, but maybe I was just seeing what I wanted to see???? I have major trust issues, and it's easy to trust a god, but people? Not so much.

Yeah, I get the terror. I'm still dealing with this, every session. But I know that everyone in life is just a human too, and I have to learn how to trust a human knowing they eventually will hurt me in some way, hopefully not intentionally, but if the r/s is worth saving we'll work it out.

This is a tough one, and I really feel for you. Hugs - you can do it.