Sweetie, if you're not in therapy, you need to get there. You need someone to talk to and to help you get rid of this awful depression. Therapy is the answer, believe me. I was in therapy for years, off and on. Plus I've been on an antidepressant for many years, as I've been depressed since I was a small child.

If you can't afford therapy, at LEAST talk to your doctor. He CAN help you by putting you on an antidepressant until you can get into therapy. Not all antidepressants have horrible side effects. And the side effects usually go away in a short time -- and not all of them are "horrible" either. I'm on Cymbalta, the maximum dosage, and I don't have any side effects at all. I know that many of us don't want to take medication but it's much better than sufferiing in the pits of hell, right?

Please at least see your doctor. I wish you the very best. God bless & please keep us posted on how you're doing, okay? Take care! Hugs, Lee