Hi my name is Michelle. I need someone to tell me what is this life for? Why do I put myself thru this, trying to be in a relationship. I have no business doing that. I have lots of rage and anger and guilt and shame. I do not love myself so why would someone else!! My dear old brother made sure of that.

I need some help with my outbursts and my thought patterns. If anyone can give some advice on how to handle those old feelings that remain after the abuse.

I am having a mental meltdown and need some help to overcome it.