Hi Michelle,

There really is not a simple answer to those questions. It takes time and it does take help, probably more than we can give you here. We can give you some support here though.

I think that a lot of the purpose of life is for us to learn about who we are and find the strengths that lie within you.

As for relationships, we need some kinds of relationships so that we can get the support that we need to overcome our problems, and so that we can learn about what we have to offer others, but you might need to learn to appreciate and love yourself before you are able to give and accept love equally with someone else.

Do you have a therapist to help you learn to control your outburts and thought patterns? Professional help is what it takes for most of us to overcome stuff like that. You might also be able to get some ideas from looking around this site. For thought patterns, you could start by looking at the cognitive distortions in the psychotherapy forum. You will probably get the most benefit if you have a professional to help you learn how to apply it to yourself, and to help you to build your skills.

Welcome to PC - I am glad you found us.
Rap