Now I've got 5 days of work left (Monday - Friday), and on the 6th day it will be time to re-evaluate me and either keep me or fire me.

Today I found out from a friend at work that the manager who put me on probation a month and a half ago told her not to help me at all (not even answering simple questions that might point me in the right direction with work).

And the manager told the two supervisors that I report to that they should be "as vague as possible" when sending the manager a weekly summary of the things I've done wrong.

So I get a list of vague things like "Do this right," but no tangible examples of how I did it wrong and where I did it wrong. So I don't know what to go back and correct. Can't learn from my mistakes if I don't even know where the occurred.

Whatever. They've set me up to fail.

The manager even told my friend that it's a test and she doesn't think I have what it takes to figure out this stuff on my own. Of course I don't! I'm not techie and this job is way too techie for me.

I'm already so used to the idea of getting canned that it would be a disappointment if they told me I was off probation and allowed to stay on.

But now I'm looking forward to getting unemployment and having time to sort out my life.

Just whining again. Thank you for allowing me to whine.

P.S. My psychiatrist gave me an RX for a mild sedative to help with the anxiety I've been going through lately. I didn't fill it because I was feeling like I've had way too many drugs in my system lately.

However, after a very stressful week at work and facing the actual meeting where I'll probably be terminated, I wonder if it would be a good idea to get the RX filled in case I need it to calm down.

It wasn't Xanax. I can't remember what it was.