its just like everything i do is one big mistake. I want to be happy, but i never seem to be able to be. I want to eat food and not get sick. I want to go out with friends and not be so scared of all the people around. I'm tired of watching my life just pass by, but i can't seem to slow it down or get myself out there. I'm just so tired of everything.

I'm sorry i'm just falling apart tonight. Its like i'm a walking bomb just ready to go off. I want to be left alone, and at the same time i don't. I've created this hole for myself, and i just can't get out of it tonight.

I really don't want to be alone anymore.