well, i have been researching depression online and it makes me much less depressed now, since I understand it and know it is just science at work, although it is negitive to us. I'm still sad about not having a girlfriend and being alone, but as others said, it will happen. I just wish it was soon. anyway, I'm feeling much better, I'd say 80%. I'll still talk to my doctor next time I go. This past depression was very bad to me, probably because of all the negitive things that happened to me, I lost my baby Bucky (best friend: cat), lost a few job offers, that I girl I really liked/loved, money problems, and other minor things. Losing so much in a few weeks was just too much. I know that it is not over, and it will happen again, but I will know what to expect and better prepared for it. I have been talking to Chelsea by email and IM's and she understands and wants to listen to me and it helps greatly. So, maybe she doesn't pity me and maybe she will help me find someone. That is positive thinking! Thanks everyone, and keep giving me those hugs!!!