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Originally Posted by jbmomg
i have this feeling quite frequently with t. i could just never articulate it as well as you did.
rationally, i know he would never harm me physically,
but
in my child mind that is in the room most of the time, i totally feel the need to protect myself. he could hurt me, he could cause me pain.
and because of that i sit as far away from him as possible, and do not have any physical or eye contact...
must explore this more for myself... thanks for sharing.
i think you are totally brave! you can do this. i believe you have tons and tons of courage.!
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In my last session, when I was telling him all of this, I found myself scrunching as far away from him as I could. I actually was leaning over the edge of my chair. He asked me if I wanted him to move away.
I said no that I was being ridiciulous. Which I was. I righted myself in the chair, but then noticed about 5 minutes later I was doing the same thing. Oh well, I feel the way I feel.
From the outside looking in, it does look totally ridiculous and irrational, but, I'm cutting myself some slack here. For me, this fear makes total sense and it's not going to just going away because I know it's there.
It's going to take work and courage.
Oh GOD this is going to SUCK!
