Hi everyone I am new here.

Lately, I have become increasingly depressed with life, no motivation, and just want to sleep all day. A lot of things have got me down and I just can't shake it.
When I was 17 years old, I was diagnosed with a life long illness and while it's not terminal, it's only going to get worse. I've had increasing problems with this including bad memory loss, weight gain, and apathy. My memory is so bad... I feel as though I can hardly remember anything. I have a hard time waking up in the morning. I need to take medication for the rest of my life. I am hardly even motivated to take care of our daughter, which makes me feel like a terrible mother, making my depression even worse.

Another that has me down is that we're living with my fiance's parents after he got laid off from his long term job. He refuses to get a job and I just can't handle this anymore! I am physically unable to get a job, so that's out of the question.

The MAIN thing is that my spouse hardly understands where I am coming from. He constantly asks me "What's wrong with you... are you all boo-hoo again today?" While I realize that I am sometimes hard to deal with, he has always been this way towards my emotions -- cold and uninterested. I wish just one time he wouldn't argue with me over why I am sad or tell me to get off of my butt and fix it myself.

I feel like I am surrounded by people who are willing to listen, but I'm not. I'm not comfortable divulging everything to any one I know. I'm too afraid they'll tell everyone. I'm always everyones shoulder to lean on, yet everyone thinks my life is going perfectly. I'm about to burst!!!!

It's gotten so bad that I can hardly keep from crying about ANYTHING that goes wrong. I'm so snappy and short tempered with everyone.

I just want some one to listen to me.

Sorry I didn't elaborate much... Thanks for reading.