Becca, people are more understanding than we think. I understand not wanting to do the paperwork and the explaining and how tiring that all is. They have the paperwork for a reason and that is to help people. You need help and that is fine and ok and necessary. You have a desire to succeed that is easy to see but sometimes in order to succeed adjustments have to be made. I've made so many adjustments and have gotten so annoyed with myself only to come back to..... it was necessary. I try try try to not be so hard on myself and learn to accept that some limitations are in fact so very good and healthy. My "normal" way wasn't and isn't always best. I've learned some neat and interesting things about myself because of ptsd. Not pleasant but when I keep my mind open that different and slower is okay and will still allow me to reach certain goals then I am happier.

I hope this day brings you some peace. Keep believing in yourself Becca.