Hi I'm 20 year old female and up until a few months ago I used to be happy all the time...nothing ever seemed to bother me and I was quite easy going. I recently got back in contact with a family member that I haven't spoken to in a few years and it seems since then I've been constantly upset and down. I was kicked out of home when I was 15 and haven't spoken to any of that aid of family until a few months ago! Now I just don't seem like myself any more and I don't know whether I'm just feeling sorry for myself because I get to find out info on my old family or am I actually suffering with depression. Any time I go out lately and I have a few drinks in me it's like I'm a completely different person. I start talking about suicide and I'm so aggressive to my friends that they're actually afraid of me! I don't know what's wrong with me anymore I'm not myself whether I'm sober or not. I've tried explaining to friends but they don't believe me because I still act like I used to when I'm around them! Please help any advice at all is very appreciated.