I'm sorry your ex husband is an ***** . Sorry to be blunt but he's using your mental illness as a way to control your relationship with your son and he's actually wrong, unless he has a restraining order against you he really can't legally do anything to keep you from your son. If it's in the child custody order that he is in complete control of when you see the child, that's different but somehow without you mentioning it, I'm guessing this is not the case. Fact is, you have a right to see your son and if you really do want to fight this you can. Sure the court can decide based on how much you've been hospitalized but unless you've been neglectful (has to be proven) or abusive, most courts will NOT keep your child from either parent. You should fight this. He's your son and he needs his mother and father both! Regardless of your mental challenges, your husband needs to respect and accomodate you and your son's relationship. Even if he does have full custody, you have visitation rights and this should all be laid out in the custody order. I doubt it says anything about you ever being able to spend holidays with him alone or you wouldn't have posted this at all. Visitation with a chaperone even would be stated there.

This is bullsh*

I feel for you. I am a father of 3, one is grown up but the two boys are with me. Now I have them all the time but not because I keep them from my ex. In fact, it's only been because of my lack of transportation and her lack of transportation and a job that has kept her from seeing them. She has made little effort really to see them but that doesn't mean I can or want to keep them from her, and they are going to spend the Thanksgiving weekend with her.

Please do everything you can to fight this if you can! You deserve to see the boy.