Thank you heartspace and missyleah

I know now, to the depths of my soul, that I am NOT those bad evil things and never was

If "bad" thoughts come up, they are just that, words, and not mine

Feels so good to be free of that "stuff"..... and expressing it here did help, although it was painful and scary to do so

I'm not perfect, who is, but I know in my heart my own truths and although my perception is skewed at times, it is not as skewed as my abusers from long ago (stepmother was one) wanted me to believe.