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Nov 17, 2012, 04:11 PM
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Member Since: Sep 2008
Location: Scotland, UK
Posts: 5,275
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Hey guys,
I am having a very emotional day today. Christmas is very stressful and emotional for me. I don't know why as it never use to be. However ever since I became ill I have been like this. I monitor this stress in my life every year and I can't manage it sometimes.
I have been Christmas shopping for 3 days solid. The town centre is choco-block with shoppers. Crowds are a biggie for me. The heat in the shops are another stressor. Then there is the stress of what to buy people. I have set a budget for everyone.... but so far have overspent. This is another stressor. Today I was shopping with my Sister and my Mum who are both STRESSOR'S for me. Anyways today they were spending too much time wandering around town. They deviated away from the shopping plan and I find this hard. I was feeling like I was gonna cry so I had to take time out. I find this a stressor too as I get embarrassed.
Why do I do this to myself? I am feeling highly on edge now. Plus to top it off my Sister and I have fallen out as she is a weirdo. I just can't win with her sometimes, I am a pleaser and please everyone bar myself and they just don't appreciate me at all!!! 
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