I have purposely been avoiding social situations for many months now, only attending the ones that involve family. This evening my husband and I are attending a party that includes 50 or so guests. This will be my first real test of my current stability. Some things I have been thinking about-will I be able to handle the crowd? Will I get nervous, and drink too much? Will the friends there who know my diagnosis be watching to see if I drink too much? I don't know why I am so nervous-I will know most of the people there. I just find it so uncomfortable to make small talk no matter what state I am in!
I'll let you know tomorrow if I survive, or make a complete fool of myself.
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