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Originally Posted by farmergirl
You seem to be putting a lot of stock on a missed text message. I've done that myself where I had several texts to look at and somehow missed one of them and didn't even know I missed it (which I guess is the definition of missing it). It wasn't that I was intentionally ignoring the text I missed; it was just an error (for lack of a better word) in scrolling through my texts.
She DID reply when she DID actually see a text from you. So, how is THAT poor behavior on her part? She has offered you an appointment. How is THAT poor behavior? How is this "playing games" with you?
Seems like much of this is your perception and expectation of being rejected rather than the reality of what is really going on. Part of that screwed up thinking that depression leaves us with. How about making this about you getting help from your T rather than making it about somehow being wronged by your T in you mind? You are only hurting yourself right now by putting up these barriers where there really don't seem to be any.
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THis is what is happening all the time with me. I try to come up with an excuse so as I don't have to talk to people again. My ex T called it self sabotage. I have been thinking a lot about it lately and maybe it is down to the depression that I think "everyone is out to get me" when in fact they are only being kind and thinking of me but past events have made me not trust anyone and be extremely suspicious of people.
These are things that I went to therapy for because I was treated so badly and deceived so much by my ex that I have to learn to trust people again.
I have done the same with texts too, I have opened them and read them and forgot to reply...I am just hurting so much right now though.
I think I am just looking for an excuse for her to mess up again, ususally I don't mind if she forgets or is late because it has happened a lot but this week I am blowing everything out of proportion and thank you for pointing that out. Sometimes I just need a reality check.