Honey - You have gone thru some horrible events in your life. You've been violated and molested, but yet you've survived and GOD was there with you the whole time to make sure that you DID survive!!!

If your boyfriend sucks, then get RID of him! He doesn't DESERVE you!! Find a kind, loving, caring person who DOES deserve you! But get rid of this one.

If you've lost your job, look for another one. I know you're depressed sweetie, but if you find another job, I'm sure your self-esteem will rise, and you'll feel better about yourself.

Above ALL, you need to see a therapist. Is there any way you can do this? You really need to talk to someone about everything that has happened to you. You need to talk to a trained professional who deals with things like this. So make an appointment with a good professional therapist, and I'm sure he can work with you to get thru these issues that you have. We're talking about your LIFE here. Please call a therapist, okay? And let us know how you're doing. God bless you and please take care. Hugs, Lee