thanks for the responses.

it's been 3 weeks since i asked my husband for a divorce and a lot has happened in that time. i called our local shelterhouse (where i have received help before) and was told that they can help with all the paperwork and since i'm on disability i could get all the fees waived. so, that's what i did. yesterday i filed my divorce papers and it will be final on january 23, 2013. monday i have to call and have him taken off my dss case, my mshda and my lease.

this all seems to be happening way too fast. i'm struggling with how easy it is to just erase him out of my life. i mean, i know i don't want him back, i know he has a girlfriend, and he can barely be civil when we communicate. but how am i just supposed to let go and pretend he was never here, never loved me, that i didn't spend 5 1/2 years caring for him. i'm having a hard time today.