Hey.
I read your whole post. I feel like that sometimes. The shower and the music ring big bells. I get that anxious irritated feeling quite a bit, and that's when I'm going hypomanic, I think. Do you have a list of things that soothe you? Sometimes I run out of my list and that's no fun. Do you have any ativan or the like? Maybe a favorite show on DVD?
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg
Propranolol 40 mg
Benztropine 1 mg
Vraylar 4.5 mg
Risperdal .5 mg

Gabapentin 300 mg
Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily