Thanks for reading the whole thing, and actually commenting! I really appreciate it. And no, I don't have a list. Maybe I can start trying things that will help, and write them all out. No, I don't have any Ativan, I don't take any medications. And yeah, I have A LOT of TV shows that I can watch, it usually does help take my mind off of stuff. But it doesn't seem to be working as much as it used to, the thoughts still get through.