I've been in a deep dark depression for over a year now. I've been hospitalized 6 times so far this year. Lost my job, lost my insurance. I lost a few friends over it but we weren't really that close to begin with. I have 3 friends that I can really count on, they know what it's like to be me. Either they have the same or another mental illness or god gave them grace and bliss to understand the hurt. I know that I have friends on here that are always very supportive. Roadie a member on here always checks in on me every few weeks to make sure I'm still ticking, which means alot to me. But yeah to answer the question, I have lost friends and family because of my isolation and in general not letting anyone in. I usually just stop talking to people when I recluse and it goes from there. Hope you feel better soon.