hi, firstly, i hope i didnt trigger anything for you biiv by posting my post. if i did i apologise.

i dont think yourr sexuality is due to being abused and having a father like yours. even though i am straight i do have a sexual thought about a man, though it is rare. it doesnt determine my sexuality though. but for me this was a result of the abuse i endured. i have realised this now thanks to the supposrt from those here at PC.

i believe we know our sexuality from the day we are born, its all about hormones and genes etc, so we dont develop our sexuality because of a certain incident in our lives. the only thing that does is makes us doubt.

and in response to your question, i often feel as though i have forgotten something, and sometimes i stop and think "shouldn't i be somewhere or be doing something, or thinking about something". its just our minds processing everything and sometimes we have to think and do a lot, so when we slow down and dont have so much to think about or do we then ask if there is something we should be doing.

well i hope this helps and i hope to speak soon.

simon