hey onlytime it sure does feel like a strange place to be in. but i bet it is kind of familliar to your T.i remember when i was finely out in the real world after years in an institution it was hard .thank god i had some very special people that helped me to learn to live . it is very comforting to be taken care of all decisions taken out of your hands. it isn't a party but neither is the responcibility that comes with living day to day life and responcibilies. it is just hard.has your T or hospital put anything in place to help that transition.
i would definately talk to your T about this .i can be sure it isnt the first time your T has herd this. they are trained to know the differance about when someone truely needs to be in the hospital . i think you even having such insight into this is awsome and a huge step towards becoming healthy