Hey Shikma...Petunia is right about the people here and the care they will give...until I came to this forum I was pretty much alone and well...close to the end...but one of the people here helped me find the courage to seek help...although the road is going to be along uphill battle with many pitfalls and many times I will fall but the one amazing thing about it is that I am not alone anymore...and neither are you...welcome to the family Shikma and anytime you need an ear just pm me or anyone here...oh and by the way I wasted most of my life in terror of being myself and doing what I wanted to do because of past difficulties, please dont let yourself be like me...reach out to someone and if they cant help then try someone else...just keep reaching my friend and one day someone will reach back...

P.S.your english is better than mine...lol...