Thank you so much for the support. I know had I phoned my relatives they would not have done anything...my fiance is deceased but I know he would have either been here or come over right away. My neighbor helped last night which I really appreciated. I did go next door this morning and spoke with the resident that lives there...I explained what happened and she knew about it. The man came inside and grabbed the woman and pulled her outside...apparently, they are separated. She didn't want to get involved and just shut off her lights and went to bed. *sigh*

She said she was going to check on the woman today (that was her mother with her, btw)

I feel:
(a) depressed and sad (I live in this type of environment where it happens and I can't stop seeing that man hit and push that woman)
(b) angry (I feel frustrated. This isn't ok)
(c) jumpy (everytime I hear shouting outside I flinch and then I get angry again and want to shout out the window "shut the eff up" )

I grew up in an upscale beach community and lived for years in quiet upscale communities...and these types of things were just not happening right out in front of the world. Now I live in a beach community where we are all on top of each other and can hear everything I hate it. I miss the manners and peace and quiet. When I heard a siren it meant someone was sick and going to hispital. Not that someone was being hurt, shot at, killed.

I want to go home. But I can't, of course.

I took a pill last night and went to sleep. I slept on the couch, though. I got up super early this morning and got my errands and laundry done.

Self care: I guess that is it. I am safe. I just hate so much that I live in a place where this happens. And I feel resentful...the building is full of people now singing hymns and praising the lord and praying and sounding upbeat. I feel as if they should be quietly praying, as if someone died...another battered woman's spirit and soul down the drain.

Sorry, I am depressed.