Even though I am struggling right now, I promise things will get better...life has been one heck of a roller coaster for me and I often have the same thoughts as you but we must not let those people that treated us like nothing win... We must prevail! People that are mean are not worth your life...I know this is a strange way to think of things (because I struggle with it myself) but you are the good, kind, compassionate person through all of this... You have true feelings. You have a heart, I know it hurts horribly...but you are already a step ahead of those people that treated you wrong. screw them you are worth more than all of them put together!