Thank you for the responses!

Faith - Im sorry your dad was so mean. It sucks having someone who is supposed to protect you constantly hurt you.

Pmarie - Thanks for your suggestions. I've tried the screaming into a pillow thing, but that was never enough. I had other ways of releasing my anger that weren't healthy but I've changed those too. Now I'm just left with the anger but no action. I don't do much about it anymore, because I try not to let myself get so worked up about it, but it still hurts.

I feel like this has affected my relationships in so many ways. I trust no man. None, ever. I've sabotaged relationships due to my anxiety surrounding them. I don't want to go to therapy for this, or again, considering my last therapist (ironically, I suppose) ended up working with my dad in a professional manner that had nothing to do with her job. Once that happened, I knew I could never talk with her about my Dad, and so that was another relationship ruined.

Oh well. Thanks everyone...good luck!