Thank you Erin, Pat, Hopeful, RadioF and Winter
I just choke up and cannot seem to get the details...you know....the words out. . I think I look stricken like a deer in the headlights when he askes me some details and all. I hate this and me for that, but right now...I can't seem to force myself to tell more and I am just so frustrated.

BTW, welcome Winter and SA can mean substance abuse or Sexual Abuse. I am sorry to both you and Pat that I didn't make what I meant clearer