This relationship is past its expiration date. I feel so keyed up knowing I have nowhere to go. We're living apart right now-- I'm subletting from a friend whose lease is up. We're supposed to move in together at the end of the week... no family or friends and I can hardly afford a place in this town, which is a difficult thing. But I can use my savings it's what they're for. I told him I am leaving him though I want so badly to take it back.

This so called love is crushing my spirit. Much like any other love it is just ending in disrespect and domination. So be it. I don't know whether to fight it or just let it. I've never had much common sense that way.