And it is personal, I can't not bring myself to post about it in the proper forum because I have tried there before and negative support. It is not bipolar related, nor can I bare my soul about it in a public forum.

So I am not sure then what to do.. but I am breaking apart at the heart. I am not together enough to just decide what to do.

If someone who knows me who would not mind talking to me could you PM me maybe? And please not if you are struggling at the moment. I feel like such a burden right now I would not want to weigh someone down in any way, I sincerely mean that. You guys mean to much to me for that.

Maybe it's too weird a request.. I don't know