What you are feeling are absolutely normal winterbaby. I would be jealous too... in fact I am, my T has been married for a long time and I resent his wife. I think it's the closeness of the relationship, you share stuff with him that you wouldn't share with anyone else and you do form a bond. Don't feel bad or shy to talk to him about this, he will definately understand... I told my T and he said he was happy I felt this way because it means I can still have normal feelings towards men! It's funny though, I don't want a sexually intmate relationship with him, but I rather want to be his best friend. How do you feel if you think about it? Do you want to kiss or hug him?