Don't know why I am wrighting this if anyone even reads and replys to this it will probly be to late. I relly want to self-harm and am serisely conceding more

I. Can't call anyone cuse my phone isn't working right and all the online crisis places are curently unavable do any of you know wear I can turn for help I don't want to end up self-harming but I need to I just want to fill better :'( I am afread that if I do self-harm I will go farther than that some one please help