Please help. I'm not doing very well right now my anxiety is through the roof. I think it's become pretty clear that my former roommate is a major tigger for me. She called tonight and left a message . Wasn't really a bad one but it brought up a bunch of hurt feelings and bad memories plus I know the reason she called was due to my husband asking her to and he is a even bigger trigger.
I cut for the first time in weeks and trying so hard not to again. I actually thought of calling for help but that would just cause me more trouble in the long run and I don't want to leave my dogs. It's in the middle of the night so I don't have anyone awake I can call.
How do I tell my former roommate not to call without hurting her? I feel so bad but I cannot deal with having her in my life. I know she has anxiety too but is much more of a angry person. I have a hard time in the idea of hurting anyone no matter what I go to great lengths to avoid that possibility even if it means hurting myself but I truely feel so horrible right now afraid alone and angry at myself for letting this get to me so much and not having more control