I don't really know where to post this or what to do.
I have been having really bad disassociation to the point where I can function okay, but there is this constant undertone of numbness and low - like I want to cry but I can't cry.

It's starting to really upset me and confuse me, in fact its really confusing me. I can't really think about much and although I want to move on and try and get better I am just stuck.

If at any point the disassociation wears off I totally disconnect and sometimes even lose control/not recognise myself in the mirror. 'Someone' else takes over, although this has only happenned 4 times.

I just don't know what to do with myself. It's like Im constantly medicated up (even though I dont take any medication) because when I go to self harm or something I just kind of lose all motivation for that.

I don't really know what to do, would triggerring help?

Thanks